16th jan 10, Grief n unforgiveness

Something happened today, something which pushed me in a well of grief and self criticism . Sometimes we just can't imagine something bad can happen but it happens, and if we come to know about it much later it becomes a permanent pain upon our existence. Questions like - WHAT IF I WAS THERE, I COULD HAVE DONE SOMETHING ... ANYTHING, remain unanswered. Unanswered questions give rise to more questions and in the end I find that these questions arise because I did not do which I should have done, I just kept ignoring. I would do anything to turn back time but its not possible and so is forgiveness for me.